I am totally in information schizophrenia mode, and I am trying to find some rationalization or contextualization for my constant zipping between 15 different political blogs, poll result sites, mainstream news sites and the like. I keep grasping at different strands of information, bits and pieces here and there trying to force them into some sort of coherent tea-leaf reading of what tomorrow holds. I know that it is futile, that each layer of information that I attempt to process has itself been filtered by its source, stripped of any meaning as a text by the filters that have presented it…
In fact I just did it again, instead of finishing that last thought I made around through various right, left and ‘center’ sites looking for a sate to my information appitite that I know is not there.
The massive tools of information at my fingertips- broadband internet + 300 channels of television should make me more informed, but instead I feel like I am just constantly in this pre-formation status, suspended between ‘facts’ but never on firm ground.
This state of flux is one that I have looked at in a really academic theoretical manner many times – but before several minutes ago it was just that-theoretical. Now I can actually feel the nature of the fractured subject position manifesting itself…
The subjectivity of the information in the so called information age created the need to enact this weird performative thought process – I am having trouble naming or describing it but I have a feeling it is lurking and ozzing in between all these discrete ‘facts’ and nuggets of information that I am seemingly in a never-ending online search for.
This started out as a post about election angst, having all this info but no ‘winner’ but it turned into something weird and strange. I think I will post it anyway even after reading it I realize the fundamental failure of my reasoning- information and its flow is not about conclusions or fact but about establishing communities based upon trust of others filter systems and then using those communities for (positive) change…..